Let me think about it

What was last weekend all about?

Nothing! I seriously have nothing much to blog about my weekend.

On friday night we stayed at home =) Coz i had to work the next day.

After work on saturday i went to Edmund's Condo to meet up with baby & gang for badminton.

I however didnt play because of exhaustion.

Then on Saturday night we were supposed to head down to Euphoria as planned.

But, we wasnt really in the mood to partay as all were feeling exhausted.

So,instead we went to Kota Damansara for dinner.

Then,went to Tutu's place for a lil house session.

It was goood but i was feeling tired to enjoy. Lolx. Can u believe it. Too tired to enjoy.

Anyways,Tutu just got this realli cool Midi Controller which he connected to his LCD TV.

Its like a Dj Set but only thing its smaller. Very cool for the NOT so Pro people like me. Lolx.

The Sound was very very good. Blasting Loud.

Obviously,parents not at home larh.

Lolx. So we drank & chilled at his place.

And im now thinking of getting the Midi Player too. Lolx. Have to ask Tutu help me order from U.S.

House sessions in the future will be so much more easier =)

So now im at work. Hopefully my camera will be ready later so we can cam whore to the max @ Penang this weekend babe!

Catched the closing ceremony of the Olympics last night. It was so Amazing.

I think no other Opening & Closing can beat this Olympics anytime soon. Seriously.

The amount of people they had to make this Ceremony a successfull wan.

Gosh 10,000 People! Can u imagine orgazing 10,000 performers to dance & perform neatly at one time?!

Thats ALOT of work. Anyways 10 thumbs up to the Chinese people!

U make us Asians Proud =)

Lunch soon. Waiting for baby to pick me.

Yeah & im done with my proposal! Baby helped out a lil though =P Anyways u wont regret baby.

Thanks for supporting me in my career although u wasnt that supportive in the beggining =)

You'll see..

Thats all for now peeps.

I pray tonight goes as planned

Day 2 @ Bali

Our 2nd day @ Sunset Paradise

Okay i know i was suppose to upload these photos a long time ago.

But there were just too manyy & so i kept pushing it aside till now.

So here's how the story goes..

On the 2nd day @ Bali we went for lunch @ Made's Warung. The food was super delicious.

They served Indonesian Cuisine,Chinese Cuisine,Western Cuisine etc..

Later after lunch we checked into Pantai Lima Villas.

Our friends from Hong Kong & China was about to arrive & Frances decided to give em a big warm welcome by booking The Pantai Lima Villas. That place was HUGE! The moment we entered Pantai Lima Villas,we didnt wanted to go back to our LeJardin Villas. Lolx. Cause at Pantai Lima..we had our own Personal Chefs,Maids,Waiter & Waitresses to service u 24/7! Most Importantly, we had our very Own HUGE Ass POOOL! Facing our very own private beach! Its as if we're in some A-List Hollywood star's Home with Balinese design. Lolx. Impressive. I'll let the pictures do the talking =)

Bee & Me @ Made's Warung.
Made Warung. Good Food. Good Service.
Upon arriving @ Pantai Lima Villas. Thess 2 units is ours.
Get ready to see whats in store inside this very Balinese Villa of ours.
Me getting all excited about our HUGE Swimming Pooool!
The Best Part is our Pool is facing our very own Private Beach! Whats left to be said?
It was just the 4 of us before the others came
This is where we hanged out pracically most of the nights. Drinking beer & laughing away.
Yeap our huge ass projector screen. Press the button & Ta-Daa!
Frances's Signature look everytime we say ''take picture!!!''

Wished my baby dear was here to enjoy all of these together with me. It will be perfect for me.
Drinking while swimming. Basically,the whole trip was Beer Beer Beer & Beer. Lolx.
Bee's very ladylike dress. love it!
The White guy over there is our Head Chef in our Villa. The rest of em is our other Chefs.
Bee helped us take this beautiful shot.

Our servers serving us 24/7 in our Villa. VIP treatment i will never forget.
Our welcome food. This is something like popiah.
The Sandwiches which i really loved. The thing is everytime u checked into a Villa. They will welcome u by serving u drinks & food to ur unit =)
Whats with the glasses when there is no sun? Haha. Its to cover my eye-bag.
we Love Bali'08!

Us with Sai & Jeff who are from Macau.
@ Our Private Beach!
Our Personal Massage team giving massages by our pool.
Dao Dao & hubby along with Yang Yang from China.

Its Dinnertime!

Dinner was good. With lotsa yummy stuff. Lobster me love. Sipping champaigne me love. It was ALL Goood.

Later that night jaz,me,sai & frances headed to town to get some Supper. Also some stuff(but kena cheated by the locals). We did find good things the next day =)

Our chefs barbeque-ing for us. Yummy Yummy Lobsters!

Our Table set up by te servers. Candle-light dinner by our own pool. With the sea breeze coming in. Was so cozy.
iTs dinnertime!
Cheers to a great 2nd day here @ Bali. So far So Good.
Lobsters
Sai & me @ Dinnertime in our Villa.


Alrite,3rd day pics up soon kayss. There is just too many pictured. Everything everywhere Everyone was soo impressive. Thats why we took too many pics. Lolx. I miss Bali.

Going out for dinner with Baby @ Pavillion later tonight. Baby's dad gave us rm300 worth of Da On food voucher. Its some fine dining korean restaurant which i've never heard of. But hopefully its goood =)

Work starts tomorror..everything is good.

''Life only gets harder as it passes you by.

Don't let things get to you,

always hold your head up high,

and learn to turn away and say goodbye. ''

TGIF!

Last night @ Bar Club was soO Super Super Fantastic!!!

It was seriously the BEST night i had there!

It wasnt as crowded as it used to be.

But who cares when u have the perfect clubbers already with you. Lolx.

Plus,it was like a family gathering. How funny.

I brought my Grandpa along with us.

Not forgetting my Sister Christal.

Baby's cousin(who is my cousin-in-law) Jessica came with us.

Jessica's brother(who is also baby's cousin of course) was there.

The funniest thing was Baby's Dad was there too! HAHAHA! Crazy Mou?

LOLX i kept laughing the whole night. It was really a special & unique night with the happening family members joining our gang =)

Totally amount of alcohol?

3 bottle of Smirnoff Vodka.

7 Jugs of Beer.

Baby's dad bought us a btl of Smirnoff & 2 jugs of Beer.

So we left the xtra bottle there & will definetly be going back sooner or later!

Plus,we had some extra essentials to get the party started. (kekeke). If u get what i mean. Lolx.

So Anyways, last nigt they played the most perfect set of music with the perfect combination of friends & family getting together.

Songs like 'Let me think about it','Put ur hands up','The Creeps' etc.

Serious MOS stuff man.

Kiff,Christine,Grandpa,Xtal,Ricky,Seng Joon,Franco,Cherry,Jessie,George,Baby & me was present.

We didnt take much pictures because we just didnt wanted to waste much dancing time. Hahaha.

Will upload the pics once i've collected em from sisty Cherry's cam.

Thats all for now.

Craving for grandpa's Singapore Mee Siam. Cant wait to eat it.

XOXO

Betrayal

''The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove to you they need you in theirs. ''

Am @ Work now. These few days has been really busy.

Citibank finally called regarding that job post. Lolx. But its too late.

I might consider it though if things doesnt go well here.

But actually its going quite well. Got to get to know my new colleagues better.

However,its quite frustrating when we have to stay back for training or night meet on wednesdays.

Im werking from 830am till 10something at night this 4 days!

But thats only for newcomers. So i'll suck up & deal with it.

I've been a reallly good girl lately. Ever since work started,i've been sleeping NOT later than 1.30am every single day.

Plus,i even skipped movie last night due to work today. Usually we will definetly catch a movie every wednesday.

Damn i wish i was still in school. Its so much Better.

Dont have to worry about income because parents will supply it.

Can sleep in classes. School finishes @ 1pm. (Which is like only half day of work).

Most Important.NO COMMITMENT.

BUT once Work Life hits you. You'll in someway start having commitments.

Then,Work is no longer a choice. It becomes a MUST.

Cause without work,NO income. Without income,DIE.

Plus,the working hours are fixed & you MUST perform ur duties well.

With school,you can sleep during classes(i miss those great days)

You dont have to pay attention to teacher babbling away on some certain subjects(although you have to do ur own revision at home la)

Its normal to always say ''I wanna work'' when you're still in school.

I use to say that anyway & lots of regrets now.

Its also normal for people to say ''I wanna go back to school'' once you start working.

But seriously,people who are schooling right now..Do Believe what im telling you.

Actually, School is wayy wayy wayyy better than work!

Somebody asked me if I knew you. I laughed and answered, "I used to."

Its only after being with that person 24/7 then you will get to know what type of person they Really are. Its definetly NOT someone i thought i knew. True characters reveiled & i dont like what i see. What happen to the ohh so nice you? i thought u had Good intentions everytime u treated me so damn nice. I thought you were really concerned. I thought you cared. In a way,maybe you did a lil. But honestly,all of it has dissapered then moment i got to know the REAL you. No more. I wont take it any longer. No more next time. Now i know what you really are. What intentions u had or still have. Maybe we were never meant to see eye to eye. Maybe im not the person you thought you knew too. Maybe. But i can tell you that i know good values in a person. Good menace. Good personality. Good Qualities. You dont have it. You're Selfish,Bossy,Ignorant & most importantly you're a Hipokrite.You think only about yourself although you do portrait yourself as a caring person. You only treat that person Good when you need something from him/her. When you dont need anything from em,you think only about yourself. I dont wish to spoil what we had onced. But i dont wish to make things worse either. So lets just remain this way & be ignorant to everything thats happening. Dont Speak. I know just what you're thinking. Think of others too & they will definetly think about YOU.

Sometimes trusting a friend is the hardest thing to do. Even the closest friends can become your enemies.

So here's to the ones i've lost. the ones i've gained. the back-stabbers. the two faced, the ***holes the whores. the fakes. once again, thanks alot, you only made me Stronger =)

Might be heading to Luna Bar tomorror for Aric's Birthday! Happy Bday dude if you're reading which i doubt you are. lolx.

Penang in 2 weeks time. Quite excited about it because my darling jessica is going with us this time!

Im also praying for those who are recovoring from major surgery. i pray he will recover soon..be Strong!

To My Mother,

I know I may not show all of my love for you,

but Mom I love you so very much.

I love you so much that when I hurt you just by not listening to you it makes me cry.

I try really hard to do what you ask,

but you just have to remember I'm not perfect.

I don't get everthing right the first time.

But trust me I sure try hard to.

I also want to say thank you for bringing me into this world.

Thank you for putting up with all my crap.

Thank you so much for listening to all my problems.

Thank you for letting me cry on you shoulder.

I Love you Mummy.

Happy 41st Birthday Dearest Mum.

Yet again i forgotten my mum's birthday until i open my computer @ Work.

I was thinking to myself ''Hmm this date looks familar? Ohh Crap. Mummy's bday & i didnt hug her this morning to greet her!''

So i decided to Text her at Work but her call suddenly came in.

Mummy was calling. Lolx. What a coincidence. I think she forgotten its her b'day too.

Anyways, of course i did not forget her present. I bought it a month ago. Lolx.

Maybe thats why i forgotten my sis & mum's bday. Bought their presents a lil too early.

Will be heading over to Spicy after work. Meeting with the group for yumcha of course.

Its been awhile since we met up & last drank.

Just came back from lunch with baby. thats the good thing with working around our area.

He gets to find me everydaya for lunch.

Bad News. Tomorror & Thursday i'll be having training @ office. So i finish work only @ 10pm!?

Plus,wednesday is our weekly meeting. Bugger thats 3 days in a row of working from 8.30am-10pm!

Thats even worse than Retail. Crap.

Im so addicted to Little Miss Obsessive. I think i am one.

Also a Control Freak. Im really scary i guess?

Baby says he is damn freaking afraid of me. Well,i dont know if its a good or a bad thing?

Im like the Boss to him. He NEVER ever gets to make the decision. Its always about Me,Me & Me.

Is this part of the reason of most of our big Dramatic Arguements?

Anyways,last sunday was humiliating. I went crazy.

Usually he becomes very very violent while we are arguing. But he never once take it up on me.

He always takes in up on himself. Which made me for once really CRAZY last sunday.

Imagine Kicking,pushing,Boxing,slapping & shouting at the top of ur lungs infront of the traffic light outside the car?

Seriously,you name it we did it. The most Dramatic action pack live scene in Kepong!

Witness by so many drivers waiting at the traffic light.

Yeah thats how crazy it is. I bet the whole of Kepong already knows it if they happened to be at that traffic light.

I was shouting at him like a mad dog. Kicking him away while he was dragging me back to his car.

I just couldnt stand it anymore at that point. I just wanted to run away.

Run Away from everything. I wanted to Kill him seriously.

What is the problem u ask me. Well,i'll ask u back the same thing.

When i say i dont like something. I really will never like it.

Yet,you go do it again. Being ignorant to what i was mad before!

The better part is,u dont even bother to tell me until i asked you!

Arghhhhh dear please try to understand me alright. I will always be me.

Step on my tail & i'll bring you down.

So just suck up & learn to say Sorry while meaning it.

Not fight back instead when you are wrong.

Anyways,enough with arguements already. Penang on the 31st? Hmm not really in the mood afterall.

But since baby asked me in a really nice & pity way. I guess we will go okay.

To satisfy you. For the days i left you alone while i was on my Bali getaway.

But thats the ONLY reason why im going.

Dinner tonight to celebrate Mummy's birthday. Funny. Christal & mummy's bday is on the same month.

While mine & my dad is on the same month.

I had to sleep on the matress in my parents room last night because my room air cond was spoilt.

Damn i think i'll have to sleep this way until the new air cond comes.

And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.

And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.

Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, Aim not desperate.

Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.

Little Miss Obsessive

080808

What did i do on this special day? Well,firstly we decided to head to Euphoria @ Sunway again. Lolx baby & me went there with his sister in law & gang 2 weeks ago already but our group of friends wanted to try the place out. And so we headed there on this special day. I was getting ready while running up & down the stairs to catch the opening ceremony of Beijing Olympics. I've always been a fan of the Olympic games. Well i dont really have the passion to watch it these days. I didnt even really catch the full Opening Ceremony. My heart was more on Euphoria. Lolx. I missed the part where the lighted up the torch during the end of the opening ceremony! Anyways Euphoria was so yummy. The music was very very good. Although i had to wake up really early for work the very next day,it was worth it. I didnt even have to drink a sip of alcohol to get high. lolx. Talking about alcohol. I miss that one particular drink that we drank @ Bali. Its something NON-alcohol but does wonders & magic to people. It makes em so High that u can flyyy. Lolx. Yeah i wished we have it here in Msia but sadly we dont =( i miss Bali too. Those amazing 9 days i had there keeps flashing in my mind. The sea,the people,the food,the restaurants,the villas Everything about Bali i miss! Seems like time pass so fast & those special 9days are gone forever.

So today is a Sunday. Sisty Cherry & me decided to head over to Pavillion today because i wanted to get some working attire. Before that we drank @ The C Club with baby. 2 jugs of beers gone down our throat. Results of it? I was a lil bitsy highh while shopping around. Lolx. We did make it to the 3 boutiques we intended to enter. The rest was history. Ended up getting a Formal Skirt & Pants from Forever 21. 2 Cardigans from MNG. Also a sweater from MNG. Am currently backcrupt. Any sponsors for Christiana Cecilia De'Cruz.

Currently addicted to

Ashlee Simpson-Little Miss Obsessive

I seriously can relate to this song.

The C Club. Drinking before Shopping is highly recommended. Lolx. We had a Great time.

A glimpse of 080808 @ Euphoria by MOS.

They Cant take away Yesterday

Euphoria last night was awesomee..

The music was fantastic. Let me think about it by Ida Corr. My fav song..practically everybody knows that already. LolX.

Currently listening to 4 Minutes on my laptop @ work. This song cant stop making my body shake a lil.

Lolx. they played this song last night @ Smoove in MOS & we started dancing like crazy. Funny Story.

Anyways,might be heading back to Euphoria tonight! What to wear?

Cherry & me tied scarfs on our heal last night for a lil bit of gipsy style =)

Love to experiment abit. Although baby's daddy said i looked like bangali pulak.

LolX.

No more scarfs for clubbing. I'll leave that for at beaches & some other outings in the future.

In less than 2 hours i'll be off to lunch. Working halfday today. Every alternate sats.

How i wished its a 5 days work per week but its alrite cause as long as i have the passion for my job.

Seriously,i do realise im taking much more initiatives compared to my previous jobs. Thummbs up. =)

I guess i realised its time to Grow Up & be Independant.

No Money No Play. lolx.

Penang on the 30th & 31st of August! No work on monday! Woohoo =)

Yeshh this time its with Sab,Eric,Darren,Khoe ,Jessica & Baby Dear.I have a feeling that this is going to be a hell of a fun trip.

Damn my skin is peeling of. I dont like the idea of me going fair back =(

I wanna stay dark until i get bored of it.

There's nothing much to do at work today.

This morning when i heard the alarm rang i slept back. Baby dear woke me up to say those words which i so dont wanna hear.

''Baby its 730am already...time to get ready for work!''

I left baby's home while watching him get back to his beauty sleep. A position i wished i was in.

Thats the thing about working. Its hard to keep up with ur partying kakis when u have to wake up so damn early the very next morning.

Well,thats life. At least i'll get to wake up later tomorror =)

One more important notice. It was my sister's bday on thursday! Yes the 7th of August 1990 my mum gave birth to a very healthy baby girl.

When i say healthy its because she looked like a sumo wrestler!

But look how toned she is now,im glad to have this notty girl as my younger sis although she does get on my nerves sometimes.

Thinking back of all the things that occured in our sisterhood..i cant help but keep smiling.

We can argue or i should say Fight over the smallest most unmeaning thing.

And when i say fight,i mean like girl fight! Some hair pulling leg kicking action!

But at the same time. My sister aka Christal is so loving & forgivefull that she sorts of forgets the bad names or bad things that i done to her even if its like few minutes ago!

She can just start a conversation back with me after like less than 2 minutes of our fight.

Thats her nature. Im truly gifted to have her as my sister.

We never got along on the same foot before. Meaning a few years back.

She'd always wear my clothes without even asking me.

The worse part is she'd always lose it or just chuck it anywer & everywhere of the house.

I would get mad at her everytime even till now. I'll always ask her where the hell she put my stuff at after using t. & she will always deny using it when i know she did. Lolx.

But being the humble,warm,kind,innocent,bubbly,forgivefull person she always is. I cant help but have a soft side for her no matter what.

The company that we mix with are 2 totally different type of people.

She was always the rebellious one so the type of friends that she mixed with..i never liked.

For that being i sort of misjudged her since the beginning.

However,these past 2 years has been great for us. I got to know my sister. Seriously.

I have always been so mean & ditch her in everything. I would always bad mouthed her.

I was always so stuck up in a way. I Thought i was so damn great & that my sister is not even abit like me.

I feel very bad for the way i treated my sister before. Thinking about it makes my tears come rolling down.

I hope i have make it up to my sister but i know its never enough because we are family.

Now,i'll always be receiving phone calls from her ''Christiana where are you? Coming back to sleep? Im so bored..come back home to accompany me for the night''

Its very hard to say no to her because i really love her alot. I only want the best for her.

Anyways,Christal is so Warm hearted & kind that im always looking out for her. She is so easily tobe bulied or lied to. Seriously.

She is just so innocent & naive.

One thing that upsets me alot.

She doensnt want to finish her SPM. That really breaks my heart as if im her mother.

I've always blamed my parents for not sending me to collge. For not believing in mee that i really can study.

I didnt even fail a single subject in my SPM..i had credits for most of the subjects! Although i only had 1A for english of course.

I never understand why my parents never believe in my studies. I see my other friends getting way worse results than me & yet their parents are forcing them to go to college.

As for my sister,she is really not the study type of porson at all.Not even a bit.

But still,i've always believed that a person needs at least a SPM cert for career(whatever it is)

Even a receptionist needs SPM!

At least with the SPM she can maybe try joining an airlines which is a good stepping stone.

Its wrong & right to blame my parents. But i seriously think they can do something & change the fact. But they didnt. So yeah im pissed with them.

I was even crying out loud when i confronted my parents regarding my sister's studies.

I really dont want my sister to end up like me. So many heavy partying nights gaining absolutely nothing.

No point. I think that studies is much more important. My sister should have it.

Sis,if you're reading this.

I just want to let u know how much i love & care for you.

I only want the best for you.

Dont be like me. Take some initiative & study. Finish ur SPM.

U'll never regret it. Believe me. I dont want to see a person so Pretty like you go to waste.

Make use of ur good looks in a good way sis. Then,people will think & look to you in a different way.

U've always found a way to brighten up my day. In fact u've always brighten up everybody's day!

Christal is the ''SUNSHINE'' in my family. She has always been so Bright & Bubbly.

I hope u love ur present from me =) I hope it really came as a surprise. i think it did right sis.

I hope i can give u something bigger. I wished i can bring you on a holiday with me & be able to pay for it.

but not yet now. However i promise you the day will come soon sis.

It'll be just the 2 of us at Sunset Paradise then =)

Our Happy memories from childhood right up till now that we're grown girls will live in me forever.

Happy 18th Birthday my dear Christal.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,they can take the music that we never play.

All the broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have Yesterday.

They can take the future that we'll never know,they can take the places that we said we will go.

All The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have Yesterday.

Work

*Big Yawn*

My First day of work here @ Allianz today went relly well =)

Im glad that i like the environment,the job & the people of cosh.

However,i cant help but keep on yawning..

am feeling so tired after my 9 days getaway at Bali.

Im missing Bali already. Its sad when i come to think of it.

Because there wont be another chance like this anymore. =(

Anyways,am heading to Ikea to meet Jessie after my work.

Swedish meatballs here we come. Yummyy its been sometime since i had u in my mouth . =P

My cousin in law is going to KK tomorror morning for a holiday!

Thats so absolutely nice..im happy for u babe!

So we have to meet up before she goes. Lots to update about right darlingg.

Love u loads!

Hugs!

Ohh yesh What Happens in Vegas was so delicious =)

Somebody is Me

My Last Day here @ Bali. This is Seminyak Beach.

I hate to admit this but i sort of am missing Bali already. Dont feel like going back anymore.

Anyways,i will be coming home on the 750am flight later.

Missing my baby dear so much.

The past few weeks has been out of my mind. Its been so wonderful.

Its been a chance of my lifetime..

I've been staying at so many exclusive Villas. Dining at so many exclusive places.

Experienced so many adventurous activities which i never knew i'd dared to.

Met so many amazing people from all over.

This was in fact my BEST trip ever & nothing is ever going to beat it.

Its been amazing.

I love you Bali. Until we meet again. Goodbye for now.

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you. it's lonely.

Somebody hopes that one day you will see

That Somebody's Me

XOXO

I'll be Missing you

Im having a Blast here @ Bali ! Time of my life seriously !

However,i do miss home.

Coming Back on tuesday on the 750am flight.

Love u baby dear.

XOXO.